I hate, hate, hate that sick feeling you get when a joint dislocates. So far I only dislocate fingers and toes, but I know that eventually I'll dislocate large joints. I put my toes back in myself, though I've never dislocated my big toe or pinky toe. I'm never dislocated my thumbs or pinky fingers either. I'm getting where I can stand the toe dislocations without freaking out. I can put them back in by myself, and I don't even retch anymore. But my fingers are a different story. When a finger dislocates at the knuckle I feel like someone threw a bowling ball into my stomach. I get on the verge of hysteria sometimes. I feel embarrassed at this because my more "experienced" EDSer friends just sit down and pop back in a hip, while I freak out over my knuckles. Do all EDSers start that way? Or am I just especially wimpy?
|EDS...no wimps allowed!|