I've still been thinking a lot about having a baby. I would have to go off all of my medications for the whole time we were trying to get pregnant and then through the pregnancy and if I decided to breastfeed. I might not even be fertile, as my PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) and hypothyroidism can both cause infertility.
After all of that, assuming I could get pregnant I have to consider passing down my EDS and my Bipolar. I also have to worry about problems during pregnancy because of the EDS and I'm at a higher risk of gestational diabetes being overweight and having PCOS.
The remaining option to have children would be adoption. My therapist I see for my Bipolar and PTSD also works as an in-home inspector for families who want to adopt. She told me that Jim and I would not pass the inspection because of our health problems. If I cannot lift a baby how could I care for her? If Jim and I are both having seizures then how could we care for a baby?
I've always wanted children. I feel as if my health problems have cheated me out of an important part of my life. I can't help but thinking it isn't fair. I have a lot of love to give, as does Jim.
What happens now?
Amy's Journey with...
Hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos syndrome (hEDS) ~ Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS) ~ Focal Impaired Awareness (Complex Partial) Seizures ~ Fibromyalgia ~ Chronic Myofascial Pain (CMP) ~ Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) ~ TMJ Dysfunction ~ Bipolar Disorder Type I Rapid Cycling ~ Migraines ~ Gastroesophageal Reflux Disease (GERD) ~ Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) ~ Keratosis Pilaris (KP) ~ Complex-Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD) ~ Panic Disorder ~ Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) ~ Social Anxiety Disorder (SAD) ~ Nonsuicidal Self-Injury (Self-Harm) ~ Piezogenic Pedal Papules ~ Hashimoto's Thyroiditis ~ Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) ~ Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) ~ Specific Phobias ~ Chronic Headaches